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English is compulsory subject in the German speaking countries too, though I would expect fluency mostly only from people who go on to pursue a university degree. To me personally there seems to be some generational patterns in fluency. My grandfather and people who grew up after ww2 could hold conversations in English, probably mostly because they learned from British and American soldiers. Parent generation, not so much. And if my experiences in work are any indicator, proficiency in English seems to have peaked in the generation born during the 80s, and it's getting worse again ever since. If I had to guess I'd say it's because in the early internet the only large communities were english speaking. Also probably because german dubs of shows and movies are available much faster. Back in the 2000s we used to watch new movies, shows exclusively in English because no one wanted to wait for a year to watch it in German. To sway off topic even more, I feel like general computer proficiency is getting worse too. Whereas in my teens even my less than intellectually gifted friends had zero problem using torrents or googling until they found a message board devoted to the obscure problem their motorbikes transmission had, the kids in vocational training at my workplace are baffled at the idea of an internet beyond Facebook, Instagram and YouTube.

I've come to a realization. I've been out of the gym for so long, I find it intimidating. Which is a strange thing since I haven't felt that way since I was 13 years old and got to work out with the high school football team for the first time between my 8th and 9th grade years. So I've taken to doing "workouts" in my hotel room. Basically, the prison type of shit you'd see people doing well, in prison. Just stuff like lots of pushups (fake pushups since I'm fat) and mobility/body weight stuff like lunges and BW squats, planks, etc. I'm gonna do a bunch of god damn squats to see if I can manage to loosen up my hips and hopefully make it easier when I actually start squatting again.

Hmm. I thought your gaping asshole was your weakpoint.

Thanks, Oz. 2018 into 2019 has not been an easy ~12 months. My back injury never resolving forced me to have to change a lot of things-including how I see myself as a person. I haven't been depressed, per se, but I was on top of the world mentally last August, and since then, it's not been easy. My wife had to go back to work after 13 years of not having a serious job-not that caring for 3 children, plus myself isn't serious, but the change meant that she had to leave the house and work in an office with other people, and it's been a lot. I realized recently that I've been living my life for my wife for the last 20 years, and I've given up a lot of things I liked doing in the process. Lots of activities that I spent most of my life up until her entrance in my life went away because they just aren't things that she wants to do-with me or anyone else. I've come to feel held back by this. I have a wonderful family and my wife is genuinely one of the best things to ever happen to me, but at this point, I don't have much to show for my work besides my family. There are trips not taken, things not bought, places not seen, things not done. Most of that has happened because it's easier to do things her way because it's a bit less painful than doing what I want to do. That's becoming less possible to deal with as time wears on. She's a bit intractable when it comes to resolving our differences. She says I am as well, though I feel as though I've been open to suggesting that we use one path or another to find a way to mediate our issues and then nothing happens or it's rejected. The biggest issue is that we go through a few days where things feel on track, like most of this week, and then something happens like this afternoon that feels like it opens all the wounds again. I don't know how to stop that cycle and call a truce. As for your forearms...First thing's first...you need to get the pain gone. For me, it was the isometrics. The isos and the increased TUT got things to where they hurt so much less. I think the thing that has gotten the pain to stay the fuck away is the increased triceps and biceps work. Your forearm connective tissues really have to work hard if you have weak biceps.

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I took a deload, been eating like crazy. Feel much better now. Going to start building back up now. Here were the last two sessions after the mini deload: Lower: Circuit (10 reps ea) GHR Push-up Band Face Pull Back Raise Push-up Band Face Pull Band Shoulder Dislocates Band Overhead Lunge CAT Squat, low bar 45X10 135X2X2 185X2 225X2 245X2 275X2 295X2 315X2 225X2 CAT Sumo DL 135X1X2 225X1X5 275X1X5 High Step-up BWX10ea GHR BWX15 Hanging Ab X10 Upper: Circuit (10 reps ea) GHR Push-up Band Face Pull Back Raise Push-up Band Face Pull Band Shoulder Dislocates Band Overhead Lunge CAT Bench, alternating narrow and wide grip 45X10 95X3X2 135X3X2 155X3X2 175X3X2 185X3X2 205X3X2 225X3X2 Pullup BW+45X5X5 Press 135X5X5 Feeling great. Gonna build up using 5X5 on stuff.

What you are going through is traumatic for both of you. She feels forced to do something she didn't want to do and is resentful for it. You are also resentful that you've given so much and given up so much. I think that the painful part right now is needed. One thing that is useful, make a pact that you both will see this through. That you will work it out, after all from what I hear from you, you both love each other. What this will (eventually) do is that you will be partners attacking a problem instead of each other. In the end, strive for a better work/personal life/family balance and everyone will genuinely be happier. Except her mom. I'm going to start isometrics and greater volume work around that elbow joint and see how it goes. It is my biggest demotivational for workouts. I end up not being able to grip things for days. It's annoying.

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By repeating the skill but slightly altering the conditions every time: https://getpocket.com/explore/item/a-johns-hopkins-study-reveals-the-scientific-secret-to-double-how-fast-you-learn?utm_source=pocket-newtab It reminds me of a podcast I listened to a few days ago. Max Aita was talking about doing variations of the Oly lifts during training for enhanced recovery and to keep lifters motivated. I now think it could be applicable to honing skill as well.

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Talk it out, very few things can't be solved in a marriage. Hit me up if you want to chat. Now tell me more about this magical thing of no elbow pain. Granted. I too neglect to do curls, but the get the most pain when I do hammer curls.

Things get...complicated when you've been married the better part of 20 years and have kids and stuff. I'm sure things will work out. But I'm prepared for any eventuality.

Ribs haven't felt bad since Monday AM, so it speaks to the weird nature of costo or anything like it...acute, and transient. Hope it stays far, far away. B1 today OHP 45x20 75x10 105x5 135x3 145x3x4S 145xAMRAP (x10) Deadlift 135x10 185x10 245x10x3S Lat Pulldowns 170x10 190x5, 170x3, 150x2 170x5, 150x3, 130x2 150x6, 130x2, 110x2 My wife has started speaking to me again, and wondered if I'd have lunch with her, so I pushed the sled 3 or 4 times without heart, and went home to have lunch with my lady.

Well I got back today from an excellent trip to Ann Arbor, MI, to visit with some long-time college friends. We pretty much partied the whole way through the 4 day affair, with just the last day dedicated to laid back relaxation. I felt great, euphoric and revitalized, but did not appreciate what all that drinking did to my electrolytes. I had massive cramping at the gym today which was saved by a gatorade machine I didn't know my gym had. 19/10/15 OHP C1W3 A2S OHP 95x10 115x8 130x12 120x12 110x17 <-- RPE 9 CGBP 135x10 185x6 225x3x8 <-- RPE 8.5-9 SEATED NAUTILUS ROW 3P25PSx12,12,11 DB HAMMER CURLS superset SINGLE ARM ROPE EXTENSIONS 35x15,15,14 25x15,15,15 ROPE FACEPULLS 30x3x15 Really happy with the workout considering all the traveling I did. I'm sure the rest I also got was helpful (yes, in spite of the partying - to be fair my sleep was anywhere from par for the course, to great). I can definitely opt to move up in weight my next week OHPing (even before a test). I'll give it some thought first before I commit to it, but I might. I am trying to remember some cool developments/breakthroughs I had at the gym today. I know I felt really explosive on the CGBP today, emphasizing the pull-the-bar-apart command that I think helped engage my rear delts and stabilize my lift better. Also, when I am doing my awkward postural setup before a lift, I am able to put my tongue on the roof of my mouth and "suck in" to put my neck in the right place. This is of course after I already set my abs and core. This is mostly a note to myself, but feel free to ask questions about it.

A2 Workout Bench 45x20 95x10 135x10 165x5 195x3 225x3 265x3x4S 265xAMRAP (x10) Squat 45x10 135x5 185x5 225x3 295x10 275x10 245x10 Wide pulldowns 130x10 150x10 170x10 170x5, 150x5 150x5, 130x3, 110x2 Curl machine Unknown weights... heaviest weight performedx10 less weightx10 little less weightx10 slowly little bit less weighx10 s l o w l y veins a-poppin, time to run.

Exactly. It's shit. Which is why I put up with the CoL... I'll be in RDU next month. I'm pretty sure we're having a fall months face to face for my team becuase they couldn't bear to watch me sweat 24x7. Last time, they had us there in June and I was like-never again. Fuck Raleigh.

Yes, I appreciate that you were being helpful and should have stated that as well. Playing the "do you want to live here? If yes, then you need a job" game is a zero-sum game. I've played it for 13 years. lol Relocating would definitely work for money concerns, but she's also the hangup there, hence the zero-sum. I'm happy to move wherever it makes sense to, but that's not a move I can make on my own. Besides, I think working is helpful for her. Perhaps some of the autonomy she feels she is missing comes back over time. I don't know.

You are a [vulcan].

I understand and I'm sorry you are going through this. Give it time, if she doesn't want to fight for the marriage there is nothing you can do to convince her and then you'll have to make decisions.

"Do 100 reps of triceps extensions, then tell me how your elbow feels." - Kelly Starrett I heard his particular piece of advice not long ago, and something just clicked in my brain.

Alright so change of plans of course lol. I have still been lifting. Friday I did the heavy day. Saturday I did my pump workout. Just going to stick to the schedule I have now. Was hoping to modify it so I was lifting on Mon-Wed and then Friday and Saturday. My kinda main reason was to have my pump day on Wednesday which is kind of dumb lol. I talked to a friend of mine and he wants to start meeting for lunch on Thursdays. It has been something I have wanted to do in the past. A little more face to face 1 on 1 accountability that is planned. The porn issue was creeping back in pretty bad if I am being honest. I have a bad habit of going to it when I am feeling down or uncertain. Which obviously porn doesn't help. Last week or so has been better. So here is what I did Friday: Heavy day 3 sets of 6 reps A Frank squat 285 B Bench press 295 C Pendlay row 265 Then I did some bonus arm stuff Thick bar curls, Incline DB curls, mechanical drop set for cable rope triceps extensions Here was my workout today: Pump! 3 sets of 8-10 reps A1 Hammer curls 3 second contract 35s A2 Ez lying triceps extensions 5020 tempo 65 B1 Standing straight arm pulldowns 4040 tempo 60 B2 Pec deck 3 second contractions 150,150, 110(felt it more this set) C1 Incline DB lateral raise 20, 25, 25 C2 Reverse pec deck 3 second contractions 70 D1 Preacher curl 5020 tempo 80 D2 Overhead triceps extesnions machine 3 second stretch 100, 110, 120 I had a nice legit pump going on. Plus I have decided to get serious about cutting down to 220 again. My scale weight with everything on at the gym is at 240 right now. My belts still fit like they should but I know the weight needs to come off. So back to low carb here I come. Been having carbs most nights. The big part of the problem is that I am not just having starchy carbs but sweet carbs which are super easy to thrown down my gullet. Think I will do a 2/3 week Carb Nite with a 1 week CBL. I need to lose weight but I don't want to lose muscle haha. So since I had that sick nasty pump I posted a picture on Facebook haha. I hadn't heard much from Jessica lately but she text me tonight saying "You didn't have to put the guns (arm flexing emoji) on Facebook like that lol." So my plan kinda worked haha. Figure it would be good to put my goal of getting down to 220 out there, show off a bit, and see if I get a reaction out of her. Speaking of reaction. So I mentioned I was going to a birthday dinner last night and a birthday party tonight. Last night dinner was pretty good. Bigger turn out than I kind of expected. It was a lot of fun. Almost got stuck in a less than fun seating arrangement but moved and it worked out. Some good conversation and plenty of laughing. No real awkward situations. The birthday party was actually smaller. There was alcohol. It was going pretty good and everyone seemed to be having fun. Kind of out of nowhere Zach is really drunk. He seemed fine and then he wasn't. I hadn't really been around him drunk before except kind of one time but he wasn't this bad. He started saying some things that he might have thought were funny but others could have taken a mean. Then he started stumbling. It definitely became take care of Zach. I think he alienated some people tonight. I ended up driving him home. He had sobered up SLIGHTLY which I was hoping for. Of course he decides to start talking because he is Zach. Between all the drunkenness he poked on some things. He brought up Emily and how things ended. Sounded like I came up as a topic of discussion. Reminded me how much I had shut down towards her at the end. I stopped letting her in and kept everything bottled inside me. It is honestly what ended things. He mentioned something incoherent about Bri and some other stuff about Emily. It honestly just reminded me I have to deal with that crap. I can't ignore it. Which is kind of funny because I was talking to him about how even if you try and ignore things from the past they still pop up Friday night.

I did some banded row + external rotation + overhead press later on. These feel really good, but I do feel a bit of impingement in my left shoulder during the overhead pressing portion. I take a bit of a step back on every rep to slowly increase the difficulty; then when I feel like I've hit a threshold on how hard they are, I start walking slowly back between reps. These I feel like I can do every day.

Random workout from yesterday: It was a "barbell workout for busy people" plus some random additions Deadlift 445 for 5, 505 for 1, 515 for 1, 335 for 18 Military press 185 for 5, 205 for 1, 210 for 1, 135 for 16 Shoulder/traps tri set for 3 sets: C1 DB lateral raise really focusing on pushing weights out not up sets of 12 with 20, 20, 20 C2 Standing calf raise shrugs sets of 8 with 3 second squeeze at top 135 C3 Cable shrug stand row sets of 8 or so with 65 squeezing D1 Preacher curl 100*8, 110*8, 120*6, 130*6 I think D2 Triceps extension machine 6*8, 7*8, 8*6, 9*6 Today I plan on doing my heavy workout plus maybe a little arms. Then tomorrow do the pump workout. Rest Sunday and then do the neural priming workout on Monday hopefully. I lost my straps last time I used them. Went to some stores to find some cheap simple ones and couldn't find any. I saw some padded ones but that was it.

19/10/10 BENCH C1W3 A2S PAUSE BENCH '225x12 205x12 190x14 RPE 9.5 all paused, triceps were decimated and obviously way more fatigued than chest/shoulders STANDING DB OHP 60x8,8,8 RPE 9 felt great. fuck seated db ohp DIPS (BW@237) superset BAND PULLAPARTSx20 +35x10,9,8 trap bothered me at the start, but I worked it out LAT PULLDOWN 175x3x10 EZ PREACHER CURLS superset EZ SKULLCRUSHERS 85x12,12,11 85x15,15,12 I think I am on a really solid place in life right now. I'm pretty far from the finish line, but I am happy with my forward momentum and the things I am doing. Training is going well, and I think work is, too. I am doing a great job at networking, and I think the PIs in the department either know me, and my work, and are impressed by it and my initiative to learn, take things on, and collaborate, or they're taken by my personality. The work I'm doing in the lab is pretty solid, and my experiments are generally working out very well. I've developed a reputation for my consistency in my results. It's cool, because binding experiments are really at the level of basic science ... which means, the biology of life generally doesn't factor too much into my results (i.e. these aren't functional assays, and those that are (gammaS binding), are at the very start of the sequence of what manifests as phenotypes). Thus, while everything is very technique heavy, because I'm using tissues not always processed by me, it's not always important how well the animal was handled, how well the tissue was processed, etc. If someone made a mistake up on that end, as long as it's not catastrophic I can always make due. And if it's catastrophic, it usually shows in my results, and we can generally easily discard the data in a mathematically/statistically honest way. In terms of life goals, as I've taken some neuroanatomy classes, read more papers, and have worked on my brain dissection technique, I do feel very engaged by the science of the field of pharmacology, or at least how it's presented and thought of in my department. At the same time, I was talking to a coworker who brought up physical therapy school/work. He mentioned a friend or roommate who is a PTist, and how he started at 77k. I somehow thought PTists made about half that much, like around 40, 50 at most. Glassdoor tells me I'm very wrong, and that my friend is very right. As someone who is fascinated by human movement, optimizing movement, health and fitness, and helping people/humans, I find the prospect of becoming a physical therapist kind of cool. Also, I actually think I would really flourish in the field, because just how I am so self-motivated to learn about lifting and also how to rehab my particular injuries, I think the same would happen in this field. In fact, PT would be like a more complex take on strength and conditioning. I feel this way because S&C, while it can be fairly esoteric at times, generally always deals with best-case, or average-case scenarios. However, PT deals with what to do when things go wrong, and how do you bring it back to "healthy." I like this type of problem solving. Even more, I like the fact that this work isn't taking place at a bench but in a gym-type setting. I also love the idea of standing, walking, and moving around for a living. To be fair, I actually do those things in my pharm lab. I find I sit about 2 hours a day on average at that job. I am generally always walking or standing, especially during experiments as I dont sit, ever, during experiments (and these are anywhere from 2-8 hours of work). Also, because I work with students, I get a decent sense of how different working in a lab is for a student, and even a PI, vs a technician. I have no passion whatsoever for a technician's job, or anything like it, but the other stuff does interest me. I was a little verbose at first about my romances, but suffice to say it's kinda strange but moving forward. It's not as big of a deal anymore since I have other things going on in life, but it is something I'd like for myself.

I dont understand what you're asking Edit: ok, this made more sense on a browser than my phone, even if my post and your question are split across diff pages on both the app and the website. What I'm referring to here is I feel like I get to eat whatever I want. I also eat what I feel is a very large quantity of food. I find myself "stuffed" every time I eat. Yet somehow, I continue to lean up, and at this point I'm definitely noticing muscle growth in weak areas (upper back, rear delts, arms, quads, glutes). I also eat what I feel is whatever I want. I do not feel restricted by my diet. I am eating a lot of banana bread, which is fucking delicious; I eat obscene shit like a raisin-bread sandwich with birthday cake nut butter spread and whipped honey. I also still eat things like Wendy's (and I'll eat a large cookie every time), Domino's (including the chocolate chip cookie dough brownie pizza), 5 guys, and out at restaurants about 3-7 times a week. I even have drinks every now and then. This is all accomplished, IMO, by my calorie tracking. I just plug something into my phone and it just adjusts everything so I still meet my macros at the end of the day. And with how many injuries I've sustained since April and the time off I've had to take due to recovery or personal reasons, I'm still very happy with the progress I've made on my body with this diet. I just feel like this is the way to go. It takes some time investment up front to pick an app, set it up right and learn the features, but once you get it going it's just so easy and seamless to adjust and adapt. I feel like either you're tracking macros and looking good and making gains, or you're eating food that doesn't taste good and/or getting hungry all the time, or you're bullshitting your way through a diet and getting bullshit results, or you're on gear, or you're @mwarren . I'm happy I changed my ways and got on this. It was actually a life-lifting goal of mine to get very large and strong when I was "young," but as soon as I felt I was hitting a wall as a product of my age-fitness-injury history that I'd start dieting down to be very lean but still strong. I had to move my timetable way up, but I dont feel bad about what I'm doing. I still have to play it safe and monitor what I'm doing closely, and think about how my body is responding to the training, but otherwise I feel things are going well.

It's a SARM, and therefore has no safety profile. lol There are scant studies, but the 2 that were done in 2013 indicate it is safe and tolerable and does what we are all looking for it to do: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22459616 https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24189892 I've found it to be completely safe from my perspective, but I haven't exhaustively tested bloods and whatnot. Adam and I ran it long-term and it works great with T, alone, and with GW. Even when totally low on T (I've spent most of the past 4 or 5 years at 100 or thereabouts on total T), LGD makes me look and feel like I'm blasting. Great feeling. I liken it to T-Var days, honestly.

If a lawsuit would actually restore the lost items, it might be worthwhile. Otherwise, I’d treat this like a house fire and move on....speaking of which, do you have a renters policy that covers stored items against loss?

I had some friends go through a similar debate about taking legal action for something similar. They started down the path but abandoned it halfway through. They said they didn't like how much the legal process was eroding their trust in others and making them bitter every single day, so they dropped it. I get it.

I am going to try and push my lifting schedule around a bit. So I ended up resting yesterday. Plus Sunday I ended up doing a bit of a pump up workout. Almost wanted to do a different workout today but lost my straps last time I used them. Going to go ahead and invest in some new ones soon as well as get some knee sleeves I think. Alright so workout today. It was rough haha. A Anderson squats 3 sets of clusters 5 reps with 315 B Pin press flat 2 inches off chest 3 sets of clusters 5 reps with 285 C Pendlay row 3 sets of clusters 5 reps with 275 D1 left leg Bulgarian split squats 3 sets of 8 reps bodyweight double lower D2 right leg Bulgarian split squats 3 sets of 8 reps bodyweight double lower E1 left standing DB press 3 sets of 8 reps 40 pounds double lower E2 right standing DB press 3 sets of 8 reps 40 pounds double lower F1 left 1 arm DB row 3 sets of 8 reps 70 pounds 3 second contractions F2 right 1 arm DB row 3 sets of 8 reps 70 pounds 3 second contractions Those Anderson squats were rough haha. It kind of feels like I might have tweaked my back a little bit. Or really it is just tight and could use some popping. Tough getting into position for those squats. Could really feel how weak my right shoulder feels during the 1 arm DB press. Thought about going up in weight when I did the left side first but right side said no thanks haha.

No immediate plans but Lithonia isn’t going anywhere so I’m sure I will at some point. Like to meet the misuss this time.

I think this topic is done, but my 2 cents -- in matters of law, the outcome is often uncorrelated with the effort expended.

Getting what's yours is laudable and fucking fair...it's just that what was yours is now gone. So fighting the man this time would only end in some asshole winning the case, or you winning the case but never being able to prove the value of your things, or prove what was in the unit or somehow ending with you being very disappointed. You got the personal things back, that's what's important (to me). Most of us live with too much "stuff" as it is, and you didn't need this stuff for an extended period of time, so its value is diminished in my estimation. Thrilled AF that you got your personal shit back, but I don't think you'd find any extra satisfaction from a suit.

Before deciding I was inclined to pursue with the thought in mind that it would be a nice challenge to apply myself and get what's mine, so to speak, from the process, and perhaps use that energy and the sense of accomplishment to feed other areas. However, this is just simply the wrong exercise for this for where I am. Thanks for listening and for your support, gentlemen.

And possess as good of personal hygiene.

We had absolutely no issues conversing with anyone in Iceland. Thankfully. Because Icelandic is a fuck of a language.

After a brief interruption of gym time due to life/work shit, I am trying to re-establish my healthy pattern. OHP 45x20 75x10 105x10 145x10x2 145x5 Due to not paying attention to my B1 workout like fucking at all, I did it totally wrong and now it makes sense why it was so hard. lol Was supposed to be 3 sets of 3 and 1 AMRAP. I did 3 sets of 10. lol FML. Moving on... Deadlift 70kgx10 100kg+10 lbsx10x3S Incline DB press 55x10 60x10 65x10 70x10 Standing DB curl into standing DB hammer: 30x10, 40x5 30x8, 40x5 30x6, 40x3 Done. Should be able to eke out a few workouts this week. Also some more fishing and hiking. This weekend I got my family out to a lake in the santa cruz mountains for a few hours of fishing and hiking. Score.

I think the pain is necessary, too. Pain is growth, because we learn from it. My wife has insulated herself from pain-literally her entire life. Pain and discomfort aren't in her wheelhouse. She is absolutely resentful that she was forced into leaving the home to work. She was always resentful of "the conversation" we'd have a few times per year when financial issues cropped up, and she'd eventually not change anything. The rent increase forced her hand in this, because it wasn't me telling her, anymore. It was reality: we needed way more money to break even, now. The problem is that some of that resent has bubbled into her day-to-day life and as a result into mine. I am absolutely resentful of giving up my identity for 20 years. I don't blame her, per se. I made the concessions, I and I alone. It's just that I'm a bit angered when I think about the fact that I've not really lived for myself in 20 years, but I also don't want to cause my wife or anyone else pain in living for me...it's a bizarre co-dependency that I'm having a hard time breaking free of. My wife is scared to death that time not spent with her will literally be time spent looking for another mate. While it's not at all true, it's also going to have the same net effect if I'm not given some amount of agency. My wife believes the same thing about my children, I think. Give them freedom and they will fly the coop...but again, if we don't give them some amount of agency, they will 100% go as far from us as they can as soon as the chance presents itself. I've tried to approach this from the "team" challenge standpoint, and it hasn't worked. I think she's still so pissed about how things have gone that she can't see the forest for the trees. I can't change that, because she's got a shell like an ancient tortoise. She also spends most of her time swallowing her anger and feelings, so that's a wonderful addition to the problem.